My First Blog Ever

I’ve been meaning to start a blog for quite some time now but I couldn’t pin point exactly what I wanted to blog about.  I check out others blogs on the daily, my best friend/sister as we call each other, has a blog and I was browsing one day and saw this list of 101 things in 1001 days.  Oh my god, I have to do this! Why must you ask? Well here’s a little back story as to how I got to this point.  A few months ago my best friend from college spent some time in Thailand and it simply stole her heart and she wants to pack everything up and move to the land of smiles.  Then I started talking myself into the idea of spending 6 months or so there myself, why not?  Well, I would be leaving behind my handsome boyfriend and our two dogs, Mouse and Dragon.  I haven’t found that one thing in my life that I love to do.  I do know that working is not my passion, I'm the farthest thing from career driven.  I just don’t know what I love nor have I really ever done anything for me and that’s why this trip sounded perfect. 

I talked to the boyfriend about it and at first he was totally for it and was like go that sounds amazing, wish I could go with, blahhh, blahhhh…Until I was dead serious about it, he didn’t quite take to the idea and said well what about our relationship?  That’s a really long time, I mean he had his concerns as would anyone and we had our share of emotional conversations regarding this topic aka me bawling my eyes because that’s what I do.   I know if I went on that trip I would come back as a different person, no matter what.  Coming back what would happen to our relationship?  That totally scares me because he would miss out on a big adventure that was life changing for me.  At the same time I struggle with the thought of not doing something because of a guy, especially a guy I’m not married to, life is too short not to follow your dreams.  After much thought and I mean a lot, pretty sure it consumed my brain, I decided not to pack my bags and move across the world.  I'm by no means ready to make that kind of decision, nor am I ready to leave Phil and my pups for that long. 

So this brings me to the list 101 Things in 1001 Days, I thought that by writing a list of 101 things of places I want to go (Thailand is on the list, we will see what happens with this), goals I want to accomplish, challenges I want to undertake, adventures that tickle my fancy, and simply holding myself accountable, this might be a good way of doing something for me.   Why not make this as an excuse to finally start blogging and have this be a fun way to document my journey.  I hope to learn more about myself and find the things that I love to do.  Thanks for joining me on this crazy ride, buckle up, oh and grab a glass of wine because who knows what can happen!

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