Thursday, December 11, 2014


Testing, testing, 1-2-3.  Wow, I honestly didn't expect to be gone for so long.  I knew I needed to spend some time focusing on what it was I wanted to do with my life, its a big decision or something.  I've tried to write a few times but to be honest I just wasn't into it and couldn't find any words to write.  I figured after a few failed attempts and only a blank screen to show for, it was just time to walk away for a little bit. Not to mention, it's not the easiest thing to put yourself out there for everyone to judge.
Tonight, after months of silence I opened my blogger and actual words and sentences started flowing. So, i'm totally going with it.  I have no idea where this post is going to go, so we all will be equally as surprised.  I guess I could start with its been a roller coaster of a few months.  I know last time I wrote, I wasn't in the best of places and felt completely lost with who I was and where I was going.  I was scared of going through life not enjoying how I spent a majority of my days.  And heck i'm still scared. Work shouldn't have to be miserable and what I have learned is that I can no longer be a Administrative Assistant.  For me, it's boring and I was so unchallenged.  It made me feel bad about myself because I felt like I wasn't doing anything fulfilling and went against everything that I believed in.  I went to school and graduated with a degree in Outdoor Recreation.  I didn't want to have that 9-5 desk job, answering phones and sitting all day long.  

I am still unemployed and friends its rough, especially with the holidays. The good news is I am in the process of receiving my certification to be a nursing assistant. It's not the most glamorous job by any means. I mean I'm wiping butts but I really feel like this is a good fit for me.  I get to be helping others, on my feet, challenged and could potentially lead to more. Heck I may even go back to school to become a LPN or a nurse.  Who am I?  I really excited about this new career move and can't wait to see where this goes. 

These past few months have really tested my relationship.  It's stressful for me and Phil because I have to depend on him more until I find a job.  With relationships though each individual goes through ups and downs and at the end of the day it's about being there for one another.  We had are arguments for sure but this has made us stronger and better than ever.  My love truly grows for him every day.  I know super mushy but what else would you expect from me?

I could really use some prayers or positive thoughts as my boyfriends family has just received some really crappy news that starts with the C word.  I don't really want to over share but the more positive vibes we have the better.  So in advanced I and his family really appreciate it.

Let's see what else I can throw at you since its been way too long? How about some pictures?  Okay, yes because I want to leave you all on a good note.

For all those who stuck around, thank you  and thanks for being so understanding.


  1. Love you!!! So glad you came and blogged :)

  2. Was that photo taken in the Central West End of STL? I live two blocks from that fountain ☺️

  3. Welcome back! We all need breaks from the blog world from time to time to refocus ourselves.